I haven’t been able to keep up with my Project 365 over the last week or so. First, I’m hurtling through each day trying to both work and work on moving. My head is constantly spinning. Second, there is too much emotion. The gravity of these changes seems too immense to allow for a daily cute picture with funny caption. It would be disingenuous to the situation, but I don’t have time for a deep and lengthy blog entry every day, nor am I sure what those pictures-a-day would even look like. So I’ve been shirking.
I also realize that documenting a major change like this will probably be more valuable for me to look back on than the more random images that I post day to day. So I do want to keep up the Project.
I’m on my way to San Francisco for a week-plus to find an apartment. When I say San Francisco, I actually mean anywhere that ISN’T San Francisco. I’d love to live in the City, but housing wasn’t affordable when I was there before, and it’s exploded since I left. So I’ll be hoping for Oakland, happy with Alameda, and open to suburban possibilities with longer commutes. At the moment I’m sitting in the Seattle airport, running on about 4 hours of sleep, and hoping that this not-so-great cup of coffee will either kick in or else completely fail so I can sleep on my next flight.
I’m worried. Worried about leaving Seth and Vic behind, and worried about how much I’m going to miss them. Worried about pumping and breastfeeding and the subconscious habit I’ve developed of grabbing my boobs to see how full they are. Gotta curb that one. I’m worried about finding a good apartment in a good place that’s ideal for the whole family. I’m worried about so many things about the move in general, but I’m making myself focus on the immediate worries of this trip. And then there’s the job, which I am so incredibly excited for, but I know will be a challenge. And after 2.5 years working from home, interacting with people primarily through chat, will I have difficulty reintegrating into the office environment?
Lots of thoughts. Too many for my medium-sized head. How do I take a meaningful daily picture to reflect it all?