I made it through 2012!
One day and change remains of 2012, and I am very proud to say that I managed to keep my New Year’s resolution of posting a daily picture on my blog! I only missed two days; one was a choice, the other was a mistake. Otherwise, I managed to get something up every day, from the trivial to the interesting. Sometimes, when I really felt I had nothing to post, I was forced to get a little creative. Some of those little story posts are among my favorites. Sometimes, when I really felt I had nothing to post, I posted a picture of my cats. That worked too, because I never promised this experiment was going to be interesting to anybody but me! Since getting pregnant I’ve really struggled with Project 365, being exhausted in the evenings and and having no extra energy in my bones or brains for creativity. Many nights I’ve actually crawled into bed, the decision made that I just would not do a post that night, but then changed my mind and posted something from my phone.
I don’t think I will be continuing this project on into the new year. Perhaps I will take it up again in 2014, but I think I need a year off from this picture-a-day pressure. However, my goal (or resolution, perhaps) will be to post blogs frequently with quality content. In other words, I’d like to keep up the blog at a similar pace to 2012, minus all of the filler pictures that were posted just because I had to get something up. So, expect future posts about the house, the baby, and more uniquely Alaskan experiences.
For a fun summary of my year, I’m going to steal a questionnaire from Rebecca over at the blog Feeling the Sun From Both Sides. Thanks Rebecca!
1. What did you do in 2012 that you’d never done before?
Got pregnant! Twice, even.
2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Shockingly, I made it through Project 365. That’s the only resolution I made, and I don’t have any planned for 2013 so far. I do have a lot of various goals in the works though, so perhaps I should label one of those as a resolution? Let’s say: “I resolve to learn basic and intermediate woodworking skills.” We have a couple of projects planned already, but all I’ve ever made before was a really horrible birdhouse.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes! One of my closest friends, Cindy, gave birth in April. Some older friends whom I haven’t seen in a few years with had babies as well (Krista! Tawny!) and I was so excited to be able to see pictures and updates on Facebook. Also, a couple of co-worker-friends in San Francisco had babies. It was a fertile kind of year.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
I’ll go ahead and count my miscarriage. Bummer, sorry. But as far as people I know and love, thankfully no.
5. What countries did you visit?
No foreign countries, but I did have an enjoyable work/vacation trip to San Francisco. I also did a little traveling around Alaska.
6. What would you like to have in 2013 that you lacked in 2012?
I am very much looking forward to having a house.
7. What date(s) from 2012 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
- January 15th – I broke my ankle! First broken bone ever!
- April 30th – Back to San Francisco.
- July 19th – TMI, but I got my IUD removed, meaning that pregnancy suddenly became a concrete possibility rather than an abstract discussion. It was one of those days where I was completely smacked in the face with feelings of real adulthood.
- September 4th – Our two year wedding anniversary, a massive windstorm in Anchorage, and my miscarriage.
- October 31th – Halloween, and a 5.5 week ultrasound confirming that the new little “lentil” was doing just fine.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I made self-employment work. I was very successful this year, although it’s really because I was able to continue working remotely for Williams-Sonoma. It would have been a much harder year if I didn’t have that. I was especially proud of myself for taking on other clients and teaching myself a lot of new things. I improved my HTML and CSS coding, learned new software, and pushed myself outside of my comfort zones. I will need to continue doing this for future success, and I really feel like I got started down the right path in 2012.
9. What was your biggest failure?
I can’t think of anything that I’m too devastated by. Maybe if anything, a lack of socializing. I’ve been pretty hermity this year.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Yep – see question #7.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
The house isn’t officially bought yet, but money has been put down and contracts have been signed. That’s good enough.
12. Where did most of your money go?
Saving for the house (and soon to be dissolved into the down payment), medical expenses, and taxes.
13. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
In order: getting to go back to San Francisco, getting pregnant, and finally reaching our downpayment goal for a house (and then everything house-related that came afterward).
14. What song will always remind you of 2012?
Probably any crappy music that plays on my Pandora workout station. Let’s say Party Rock by LMFAO. I think that’s appropriately obnoxious, and in 20 years it will have me pining for my mid-30s.
15. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a. happier or sadder?
Probably happier, in that I am more secure.
b. thinner or fatter?
Surprisingly, probably exactly the same, although the year has seen both ups and downs.
c. richer or poorer?
Richer! Until we cut the check for our downpayment, that is.
16. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Crafts or fun projects just for me. Reading. Journaling. Oh, who am I kidding? I don’t “journal.” I write in my diary. Drawing. I really need to sketch more.
17. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Procrastinating! Dear lord, the time I waste procrastinating. I’ve read that it’s actually a healthy part of the creative/work process, but I feel so crappy until I finally put my foot down and make myself get something done. Then afterwards I wonder why it was so hard to start. It would be great to learn how to bypass the whole painful thumb-twiddling part.
18. What was your favorite TV program?
We watched all of The Wire. We also got caught up with 30 Rock and Parks & Recreation. And I do love me some Boardwalk Empire and Mad Men. Out of all of that, no #1 favorite.
19. What was the best book you read?
I didn’t read nearly enough this year. For classics, I really enjoyed The Good Earth by Pearl S. Buck, which we read for our book & craft club. For something more contemporary, How To Be Black by Baratunde Thurston was excellent. I tried to break into my leviathan nemesis, Moby Dick. I actually really enjoyed the first chapter (a shock!), but didn’t get any further. I blame the pregnancy.
20. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Spotify. I like being able to listen to anything I damn well please, and for free too! I don’t mind ads.
21. What did you want and get?
I wanted the move to Alaska to work out, and although it’s complicated, I would say it’s been a success. I wanted moving into Seth’s parents house to be a positive experience for everyone, and improve my relationship with his family rather than strain it. I would say (from my perspective, anyway) that this has happened – it’s been great. And then, of course, all the things that I’ve discussed above re: house, baby, travel.
22. What did you want and not get?
Peace, resolution, and/or understanding in certain difficult relationships. I’m still estranged from my father, but now in communication with one of my aunts, so 2013 may hold something on that front. Although in the case of my dad, I think it can only get worse before it gets better.
23. What was your favorite film of this year?
I actually saw more movies in the theater this year than I have in a long time. Looper and Lincoln were standouts, The Hobbit was pretty a’ight, but I wouldn’t say that I felt passionate about any one to call it a favorite. In the world of Netflix, The Business of Being Born was a total gamechanger for me, and it’s responsible for me choosing a midwife over an OB and a birthing center over a hospital. So I guess of all of the movies I saw this year, that one was the most influential.
24. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
34 years old, and karaoked my heart out!
25. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Honestly, it was pretty good. I conquered a lot of goals and I worked hard. I’m pretty pleased with the results. More karaoke?
26. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2012?
Pajamas. Pajamas for days, and guilt over the pajamas, and then some jeans. Also workout clothes. In other words, cutting-edge.
27. What kept you sane?
Seth. Linda. Good advice. Great support. Love. Cats. Paychecks.
28. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Mike Birbiglia, Marc Maron, Ira Glass. I listen to a lot of podcasts while I work.
29. What political issue stirred you the most?
The ridiculous debate over women and rape and birth control and abortion that just about set us back a few decades made me want to strangle someone. All of the misinformation about the presidential election was obnoxious and appalling. Most recently, the crap spilling over onto Facebook regarding the gun issue (“God won’t be in schools to protect the children if he’s not wanted” – are you fucking. serious. ??) has been making me very sad for humanity. But I generally avoid sharing opinions, and try to distance myself from political hyperbole.
Oh, and any argument against science is an argument for a punch in the face.
30. Who did you miss?
My friends in California – Cindy and Joanne at the top of that list. Besides being my lovely bridesladies, they both recently had babies and I wish that I could be there to see their motherhood experiences and learn from them to prepare for my own.
31. Who was the best new person you met?
Electronically, I have really enjoyed following Rebecca’s Project 365 blog (the person whom I stole this list from). We became acquainted when we both posted our blogs on a Project 365 list. She started following me, and then I followed her. It’s been really cool to see the year in the life of an Australian my same age, and I feel as if I’ve gotten to know her and her family (albeit in a weird lurky/stalkery kind of way). It also makes me feel better about the Australian pen-pal I had in 4th grade and stopped writing to (for a lack of stamps). Mental amends made!
Personally, I became friends with Wendy through Molly and Linda, and she is one of the sweetest people I’ve ever met. She has gone camping with us and is part of our book/craft clubs. She is a very talented glass artist, and hopefully for one of our craft days she’s going to show us how to make some glass artwork in her kiln.
32. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2012.
Keep challenging yourself and keep learning new things. If it’s hard and frustrating, that means it’s probably worth it. Nothing feels better than a breakthrough.
33. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
The chorus to Foster The People’s “Waste” was fairly poignant to me, especially when I was still transitioning to my new life in Alaska and feeling fairly depressed:
And every day that you want to waste, that you want to waste, you can
And every day that you want to wake up, and you want to wake, you can
And every day that you want to change, that you want to change, yeah
I’ll help you see it through ’cause I just really want to be with you